There are 126 poems entered for our “My Disabled World” poetry competition
HERE IS PART ONE (44 Poems)
In all there are 123 entries and here, at Disability Talk & Virgin Media, we want to thank everybody who took part – and wish everyone of you the best of luck .. as well as your chosen charities. The winners (the poets of the twelve ‘most liked’ poems) will be announced in December.
Best wishes to you all – Chris Jordan (Founder of ‘Disability Talk)
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Lose the “T”
It’s not what I can’t
It’s what I can
My T shirt reads
“Lose the ‘T’
Always achieve, every day
Write a song, read a book
In desperation
Do the laundry
You may fail
Today
But always, always try
Too easy to mourn for what you’ve lost
Good health is for someone else
Not me
Not poor me
No, Not poor me
Rich me
Look at what I can do
Not always every day
But in a small way
I can do
Yes
I can do.
Entry submitted by Christine Lavelle – whose favourite charity is:
Crohn’s & Colitis UK
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‘Lady in a Wheelchair Invisible or What?’
Look at me What do you see? Ask me a question Watch my reaction You see I live, I love, I cry Speak to me, go on try
I cannot walk But I like to talk Don’t natter over my head Look down and speak to me instead Are you afraid or shy? Are you too embarrassed to try? Can’t you stop for a while? Speak to me and make me smile How I wish I was strong and tall Being down here my world is small My limbs are weak but my heart is strong Speak to me it won’t take long Some time ago I was well and smart Then an illness tore my world apart Now I see life through different eyes Time for the truth, no more lies So many things I cannot do Speak to me it could happen to you
Poem submitted by Jackie Cooper whose favourite charity is ‘The British Heart Foundation’
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‘I want to die’
Darlek Darlek, why don’t they leave me alone One arm Bandit, one arm bandit through my head All the time Pushing and shoving, what have I done I’m different, not like them wish I could die See the dancers see how they skate I would like to do this Oh how I hate ……………. I sit in the bath, tears in my eyes Sobbing sobbing another bad day Taunting from morning to night See the riders high on their horses Wish I was normal Oh how I hate …………….. Cripple cripple everyone shouts Spastic spastic, I don’t understand I want to be normal oh how I try See the girls in their high heeled shoes Hair piled high Oh how I hate …………….. Poem submitted by Sherren Carter whose favourite charity is ‘SCOPE’ ………………………………………………………………….
‘Invalid’
If paperwork or laws are termed invalid
How, then, does that apply to the Warriors
In the hospices, with Chemo-blasted immunities
Who smile and fundraise and seize the day?
Or to the blade runner and other super-humans
Who set records which beat the advantaged ones;
Those who take out their mask and glare back
At their demons, every single working day;
To those who walk with their assistance dogs
Through crowds more unseeing than they;
Or to genius Hawking with his robot voice
Unleashed by technology to dazzle the world
And confound masters of science, rewrite history..
How are these afflicted heroes invalid in any way?
Invalids? Rather, they are champions of the minute
The hour, the day, where they triumph and triumph again.
Poem submitted by Alison J Schultz – whose favourite charity is MS
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LION HEART
A smile and pink rosy cheeks stare back at me,
Heart full of courage, strength and fragility,
Fuelled by a love of humanity and family
All wrapped up with a tag saying disability.
Life is a Marathon but there will be no finish line,
I own my cards and I will roll my dice,
Ordinary girl less than ordinary life,
Fiercely independent fought for my whole life.
Covid 19 and society don’t wipe me away,
Tears fall as I wonder if you will ever again ask me my name,
My delicate heart has no place to hide.
My smile and pink rosy cheeks ready to do battle for another mile….
Is inclusion, touch and love even meant for me,
Clean your mirror and you will see,
Those with disabilities have a story like you and I,
Open your eyes and don’t listen to your lies.
Disability must replace inviability.
The lion within won’t stay silent for another day.
My name is Toni-Marie just an ordinary girl with a disability.
Entry submitted by Toni-Marie Barker – whose favourite charity is: Revitalise
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I THINK I’M OK, IF THAT’S OK
The World of Rutherford School
A WORLD WITHIN A WORLD IS RUTHERFORD SCHOOL
AND YOU WOULD BE AMAZED IF YOU SAW IT ONE AND ALL
THE STUDENTS OF OUR SCHOOL ARE ALL PMLD
BUT NOTHING STOPS OUR PUPILS AS YOU WOULD SEE
IF YOU CAME THROUGH OUR DOORS YOU WOULD HEAR MUSIC PLAY
AS NEXT DOOR REBOUND THERAPY GETS UNDERWAY
JUST WALK A FEW PACES DOWN THE RAMP TO THE POOL
AND SEE OUR STUDENTS AND STAFF ALL HAVING A BALL
OR JUST RELAXING GENTLY IN A THERAPY SESSION
AND IN A CLASS AROUND THE CORNER A COOKERY LESSON
THEIR CLASSMATES NEXT DOOR ARE CREATING GREAT ART
TO THE SOUND OF BOWLING BALLS KNOCKING SKITTLES APART
LEARNING IS FUN AND FUN IS LEARNING
AND OUR STUDENTS DO BOTH AS OUR HEARTS ARE YEARNING
TO SEE THEM DO THINGS THAT ALL STUDENTS DO
IN ANY OTHER SCHOOL THAT YOU CHOOSE TO GO TO
YES THERE MAY BE CHALLENGES ALONG THE WAY
BUT WE TREASURE OUR STUDENTS IN EVERY WAY
WE WORK AS A TEAM TO HELP ONE ANOTHER
AND AS WE WORK WE STRIVE TO INSPIRE EACH OTHER
RUTHERFORD SCHOOL IS A WAY OF LIVING
OF LOVING AND HOPING AND SHARING AND GIVING
AND THE LAST THING ABOUT IT THAT I HAVE TO SAY
IS WE ALL LEARN SOMETHING NEW EACH AND EVERYDAY
Entry by Colin Williamson – whose charity is Rutherford School, part of the Garwood Foundation
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See Me: and my ability!
I can’t walk a distance, but my buggy takes me far
I can’t lift heavy things, but help comes with those with a car
Sometimes the pain I am in makes me yelp
But then with medication that does rather help
However, I can still be Great Nan, Nanny, and Mum to all my brood
I can smile and inspire all my friends and get into the grove!
I may not be able to do some things, but I am able to do most
I can organise, I can internet and Zoom, I can be a host
So, don’t tell me I cannot do the things you can do
Maybe not – but I can do some things you cannot do
My best thing of all, I have found with my ability
Is not to make a big thing out of my dis-ability!
I just ask that you ‘see’ me in the buggy or wheelchair
Not talk to the person near me who is there
I am a person who wants to relate
So, I just want you take stock instead of me having to wait
I don’t want a piteous look I just want you to care
I am just a person like you – in a wheelchair!
Poem submitted by Pam George – whose favourite charities are:
MS & Cancer Research UK
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What is it, if it’s not an affection?
She has been my everyday’s favorite imaginary meal
My everyday wish and need
To grab her inside the case of my hand
Like coins and notes in a wallet, a brief case or a tin
You’re the moon, a target but not easily shot, ain’t you?
My garage is vacant, dry and hungry
My garage is open like the sky
There’s none – not any; who can fill it. But only her,
with her hips and wheels, front and behind, windows and mirrors.
Like glue, you paste a smile on my face, don’t you?
When she passes on the street
My blood run kilometers per seconds
My heart hits the shiny and tiny stars warmly,
It dances over the river of honey and glitters with delight,
With your nice nose, you trigger my smile like a bullet, don’t you?
Nothing makes me feel comfortable than the softness of your couches,
When I touch you, I fall in the dam of laughter and tears of joy,
As from now, not I have you in my hands but in my mind,
As an image, you exist and I feel you, you are in my garage,
And I hope I will grasp your steering wheel one day, won’t I?
Poem submitted by Selomane Thomas Abram
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The call of the buzzard draws me in
To a place I’ve never been
It’s dark inside with no one there
And nothing can be seen
The buzz of silence within my head
Echos a conscious decision
To go inside and disappear
To avoid all this confusion
The darkness wraps its arms around
And holds me firm and strong
Giving me the time to think
That something is quite wrong
Above the trees it’s a different world
One full of space and time
Where no one ever questions
And the feeling is quite sublime
I rest my head to watch the clouds
Drift by without a care
Of anyone or anything
And nothing to declare
A sense of place to call my own
Where no one can disturb
The thoughts and feelings deep within
Resting unperturbed
The face can show a different side
So others cannot see
That layered deep within your soul
Is where you need to be
Rest my friend and take your time
To discover who you are
Find solace in the ones you love
And the buzzard is never far…
In honour of my dear friend Sue
Good night, God bless,
To you my friend Sue.
You will be able to open your own door now,
Invite your loved ones in for tea,
You will see your boyfriend Jack again,
And You won’t be in any pain.
You will be able to walk,
And be able to talk,
You will no longer need your chair.
Good night for ever
God bless.
Your dear friend Susan
Poem by Susan Fletcher and submitted by her support worker Louise Reid
Susan’s favourite charity is the ‘Alzheimer’s Society’
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“Little White Pill”
Little White Pill
You’re making me ill
And I’ve had my fill
Of thee
Little White Pill,
I’m supposed to be chilled
But you’re starting a fire
In me
Little White Pill
I’m taking you still
While longing for years
To be free
Little White Pill’s
Moving in for the kill
Can I break away
And get clean?
Poem submitted by Simon Tayler – whose favourite charity is MIND
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My Condition
Don’t pin it on my condition,
Pin it on the discrimination,
The language that is just lobbed around,
What your brain sends down your sensory and motor neurones when you come across me,
I may differ from you, aesthetically, audibly, and how I
But it’s what you predict, not the authentic answer.
Don’t pin it on my condition,
What about the builders who constructed roads without drop curbs and the fact there’s no way of knowing whether streets have them-so I have to pause and navigate my route rigorously?
Or the printers who didn’t design a braille alternative for menus and books and packages so I have to get someone to read the contents out and have certitude they are accurate, read at their pace?
What about the engineers who left the flaring red lights just for fire engines and ambulances and the people who when there’s an important announcement, don’t think to have subtitles or a BSL interpreter so my independence is snatched and I feel like I’ve been plonked on a murder mystery board game?
What about the manager at an airport or club who didn’t designate a quiet place to go when my sensory reflex is on super assertive mode?
Or the author and their agent who didn’t specify they wanted the calligraphy available on yellow pages or in a bolder font?
Or the manufacturer of my computer that I type phrases into, the voice is droning and there is an off-putting silence when I type my answer that isn’t a ringer to my vivacious, exuberant personality?
The thing is, I would let that drift in the breeze if they demonstrated a positive inclination,
The offer to help, a growth mindset,
I don’t mind if you’re ambivalent,
I just hope you communicate with me,
And see that I’ve got humour,
I’ve got wit,
When you sprint, I zip round in my chair, When you see something, I feel it with all my senses,
When music purrs into your ear, I feel the vibrations through my feet,
When you read or write something, I have to be creative and shuffle the information,
When you talk contracting the strings of your adam’s apple , I talk with my hands, computer or symbol book,
Yes, sometimes I feel down when I see my peers undergo tasks so easily,
How quickly they can get dressed,
How they can just enter a place or book an event without having to check access,
How they can fly through pages of a book, their cognitive wheels hardly churning,
How they don’t get underestimated just because of an impairment,
Sometimes I get praised for something when I’m just coping with life,
But with my condition,
I have zany experiences which make me more creative,
I feel emotions twice as potently as you which makes more emphatic,
I’ve learnt to shine light on the things that put me at a disadvantage,
That’s why I don’t call it a disability, That’s not the problem,
Your outlook is,
What leads to mental perishing
Poem submitted by Matilda Barrowman – whose favourite charity is AMAZE
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Eyes, look to me
Eyes, look to me.
Our eyes don’t meet
Yours turn away from me.
Meet mine eyes
Which are true to yours.
Look to me
And you shall see,
Someone who is
Familiar to you.
So look at me,
With eyes straight
And we’ll both be
Together face on.
I’d like to meet
Your eyes,
So please
Don’t turn away from me.
Just meet mine eyes
And be seen to me.
Then maybe you can be
Someone who will
Become closer to me.
the new generation can’t see what I did,
changing beliefs and attitudes,
liberating the land from ignorance,
I can tell you about social distancing,
discontent with a label of a learning disability,
my movement and co-ordination impaired,
my mind misfires and fragments again,
there must be more than day centres and wards.
social change my first love,
paving the way was my dream,
diversity, equality and equal opportunity,
putting the pieces back together of myself,
like a jigsaw even if the missing pieces take years to turn up,
Some people said “Pull yourself together”
getting on with it with a hidden disability.
and wanted to be like other people,
but soon realised they wanted me to be like them
and I wasn’t so I broke free,
I couldn’t listen to some views,
so I stayed in a bubble and made my own rules,
Who did I really want to be?
A lonesome quiet world
At seven of age my world collapsed
No sound at all could I hear
Not the birds, bees, wind nor rain
No human or animal, not even a whisper
From hearing music and jolly laughs
Going to Opera and listening to the Beatles
I joined the silent world of deafness
In a room on my own, isolated from the world
People coming and going, chatting amongst themselves
But I, I could hear not a word
Doctors came and went, parents visited and looked at me
I had no idea what they said, I tried and tried in vain
But I could not hear a word in my new total world of silence
November came, and fireworks could I see from my Hospital window
But why don’t I hear the bangs, all the fun and noise
Not a single thing could I hear…
Finally I could join the ward
Children everywhere, but how could I play because no communication had I
A friend I finally made, by pictures and writing notes
A little glimmer of hope that all was not lost..
I finally left hospital, deaf as a mute
However, I had joy, because in the land of living was I.
I had life ahead and despite hurdles to overcome
I felt a positive vibe …. Here I come…….
Poem submitted by Stephen Nott whose favourite charity is:
Children’s Hospice South West (Little Harbour)
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This Time
On the day the sun shines it is a rainbow kaleidoscope of joy and living.
The tilt of a bird’s white wing catching the light, shimmering – a silver angel reaching
for the heavens.
A flower opening, velvet petals, peach skin soft, tiny filaments of life.
The sky a blue of forgotten times, a vault so high it is unreachable and yet on these
days
I can aspire to fly beyond it to an infinity of beauty and heart -breaking loveliness.
On the bad days there is no sun.
There is nothing of joy to move me to tears, nothing to uplift or sustain.
Only the vision of a dark road, leading to darker places.
The black dog, the dark cloud, the weight of untold misery – but why?
I’m lucky, I have so much – so it must be my fault I cannot free myself from the
sucking, destructive hole of misery.
I want to see the sun again. Yet this must be a life choice –
I’m choosing to live my life like this. For now – I think, I hope.
But will I marvel at a butterfly again moved by its perfect symmetry?
Will I smile to myself as I see a ladybird and remember the childish rhyme?
Perhaps I won’t climb out of the hole this time – in which case what is the point?
Perhaps there will be no more happiness.
In which case why carry on?
The pointlessness of this life.
And then, by chance I see a tilt of a bird’s wing catch the light, I stop and see a
sunbeam somewhere breaking the clouds.
A stirring in my soul – nourishment, a feast for my emotions.
Not this time then.
This time I will join the silver angel and reach for the heavens.
This time.
Poem submitted by Shelagh Callaghan – whose favourite charity is
Independent Living
Our Brave Hero…
If We could take it all away and do this in your place
If We could find a better way for these obstacles you face
If We could say the words to tell you that you are so brave
If We could find a right way for you to be standing at OUR grave
If We could lay there in your place it would be how it should
If We could change the path you’re on We absolutely would.
But…
We can make your life complete and happy as can be
We can hold you in our arms and our love you can see
We can take you on adventures untold because you deserve the best
We can show you that life is not just pain, hospitals and tests
We can show you how to find wonder and say goodbye to your fears
We can cheer you on and help you through, whilst wiping away your tears
We will show you fun and laughter more than you can take
We will stand beside you and make you strong even if you break
We will show you no limits on this life for you deserve great times
We will stand here at your side and carry you in the climbs
Adventures await you darling boy, just as it should be
Life is short but fun, just you wait and see
Poem submitted by Tricy Wood – whose favourite charity is SSAFA
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Ready, aim, fire
Between the order and execution
the message scrambles.
Alerted neurones hesitate, confused,
as weapons jam, formations break,
scatter directionless and lost.
Command repeats: forces must regroup,
make ready, rally for The Push.
Synapses sizzle as a circuit wakes,
transmits instruction down the line:
lift – bend – step – replace –
shift weight – repeat
Neurones mumble mutiny –
a memory stirs: what next?
best foot forward – by the right
ADVANCE
Poem submitted by Lynda Turbet – whose favourite charity is MNDA
“A BETTER WORLD”
Nobody is perfect,
That is a fact of living
Sad misunderstanding
Can foster great misgiving
But tolerance and common-sense
Will help to save the day
And calm a situation
To find a better way
In a patriotic nation
“Love of Country, Love of Life”
Has failed the test of history
And caused much human strife
Jingoistic tendencies
All seem well and good
But are not the best examples
And can be misunderstood
The human race takes many forms
In many different states
Different colours, cultures, idols – To whom belief relates
But we have one great thing in common We live upon a star
Human beings thro’ Millennium
Know just were they are
Humanity has entity
And simply has to show
That we must live together
On this planet that we know
If the world could only see
What unity is worth
It could create, “Eureka”
The “United states of Earth”
Poem submitted by Paul Zetter CBE – whose favourite charity is:
Bob Champion Cancer Charity
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Up And Down
Up and down, rise and fall
Is it possible to work it out at all?
The nights are long but days are longer
Still people say, ‘you are stronger’.
Another day, another letter
No chance of me feeling better.
Daily news casts are full of gloom
I put on the music it fills the room
Now’s the time to have a dance
No one’s looking, ha ha no chance!!!
No-one calls, no-one phones,
Left alone to rot my bones.
I’m feeling sad, I’m feeling blue
I can only think of one thing to do.
Poem submitted by Adele Lowe whose favourite charity is Stepping Stone Theatre
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Trapped
Have you ever felt trapped inside yourself, like every muscle is paralyzed. Everyone is starring, pointing, analysing you! Yet your so afraid to try and move incase you don’t do it their way.
Poem submitted by Vicki Gleave – whose favourite charity is MIND
When the birds have gone
Fledgling life taking to the sky
Escape with hope, and majesty,
Leaving the cradle of infancy
Moulded and shaped by time.
Constant companions through
Deserted highs and lows,
Their song illuminates the silence
Of darkened flights of thought.
Nature’s vast selection
Choosing those who thrive,
Leaving others…weakened
Without a look behind.
The sky now empty
The swift arc no longer drawn.
How will I feel, where will I be
When the birds have gone?
Poem submitted by Charles Allen whose favourite charities are MIND & SCOPE
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Thanks but no thanks
I’m a very helpful person
as I bustle up and down,
looking out for those in need
of help around the town.
I open doors the wrong side round
and then stand in the way.
I zip up bags of shopping
too tightly, while you pay.
I step out into traffic
and raise my hand for ‘Stop’ –
even if the crossing place
is not the ideal spot.
I hover outside toilets
and call in through the door.
In cafes, I make lots of space,
move chairs and clear the floor.
I help with coats and jackets
you never have to ask;
a good firm yank is what you need
to get your arms out fast.
Some people sit in wheelchairs
too low down to chat.
I just speak to the escort –
it’s quicker to do that.
Others have a problem
and I can’t tell what they say;
so I pretend I’ve understood
and hurry on my way.
There’s a woman on a scooter
who rolls her eyes and glares;
she ought to be more grateful
that a friendly stranger cares.
For I’m a helpful person
I enjoy doing good –
(excuse me for a moment)
Let me help you cut that food!
Poem submitted by Linda Turbet – whose favourite charity is MNDA
Parent Carers
The weight we carry – the joy we see,
We’re the definition of ‘parental responsibility’.
We’re exhausted, emasculated, disrespected and spent,
Parent Carers – we’re irrele-vent !
We gladly sacrifice our careers, our health,
Experience is now our only wealth.
Our medical profs can only guess at our futures,
Our child’s love holds us together like magical sutures.
We endure therapy and surgery – administer meds,
Tube-feed, change pads – hoisting onto profile beds.
But it’s the fighting, the begging – for the help that we need,
That’s what finally brings us to our knees.
Our lives change forever when these wise old souls arrive,
We need more credit to flourish – to blossom – to thrive.
To be valued in our communities, in society,
We need to be someone’s priority !
When people say – “so you’re not working now?”
What do you say – with your furrowed brow ?
Breathe deep, hold your head up high and say:
“I am a Parent Carer on £9.60 per day !”
While it’s true that some days it’s a struggle to cope,
We take each day as it comes – full of determination and hope.
For we have a secret weapon – stronger than anything known to mankind,
Take a look – it’s unconditional love that you’ll find !
Poem submitted by Tymandra Blewett-Silcock – whose favourite charity:-
Popsy Charity
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My Friend
HI AT PRESENT I LIVE WITH ANGE.
SHE ACQUIRED ME QUITE RECENTLY.
I’M THE THE NEXT MODEL UP, A TRADE IN.
WE’RE RATHER ATTACHED TO EACH OTHER, AS YOU’LL SEE.
SHE CHOSE ME BECAUSE I’M SUPERIOR & SILVERFRANK SHOWED ANGE ALL MY FUNCTIONSSHE HAS TWO DUFF EARS, BUT I’LL HELP HERTO TAKE PART IN LIFE & TRICKY SITUATIONS
My eyes may be broken,
but I still feel you stare.
Your eyes are wide open,
I’m well aware.
My legs may be wobbly,
But just give me some time.
Get me my wheels,
watch – I’ll be fine.
My bones can be fragile,
please don’t be scared.
My mind is quite tough,
so please don’t compare.
My ears may not work,
but I know you are there.
Please don’t shout,
it’ll get you nowhere.
My words get mixed up,
sometimes they go missing.
Letters play games with me,
so don’t go dismissing.
Some things you can’t see
But they are still real.
You’ll never be me,
but you know how you feel.
I am still valued,
outside and in.
Believe me, I’m abled.
Believe me, I win.
Origami doll
folded in on my former self
shallow breathing on a bed
flapping flimsy scales
weighing heavy on heart
flat out barely able
to scrape a second dimension
Paper Samurai
sword bent and rusty
paper cuts now ancient
memories course through
a forgotten centre
lemon juice burning
cures that cost and never heal
Is this still me,
this pale tissue shadow
held together by sticky tape and grace?
Fishing From a Wheechair
Fishing from a wheelchair
starts like I am just lazy:
seated, a beer against the wheel,
snapping the rod sky
ward with the great wings
of my back alone, its fly
flies out across the waters,
and in the arc, the splash,
the waiting, I am as others,
as I was before—the
bite changes everything.
The rod bows, my brakes
slip, I wonder: will I land
the trout or will he water me?
Longneck turned and foaming,
toes flippered blindly into hooks—
a bit to pay for later—I
haul my brother ashore to die
out in my chair’s bucket. I know:
I am his crash.
Poem submitted by Greg Beatty – whose favourite charity is:
The Humane Society (UK Branch)
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A Message
One of the best of minds
destroyed by dementia
does not howl on her knees
in the street, does not masturbate
in the magnolia living-room,
is not dragged off the roof-top,
naked; no, she leaves a message
on her daughter’s answer-phone
saying: there’s an echo,
an echo in my head.
Poem submitted by Dr. Olive M. Ritch – whose favourite charity is Dementia Care
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I’m not just a wheelchair
Look at me closely, what do you see?
Please have a look,
Do you see me?
I may be sitting, I may look quite short
But, inside I’m no different; full of life, love and
thought.
You may move me around by pushing my chair,
But please treat me as a person,
Show me you care!
My chair is my transport, just boring old wheels,
I don’t care how my chair looks, or how my chair
feels.
But I care for the person sat in the seat,
With lots to say, lots to do and lots of friends to meet,
So please close your eyes tightly
And listen close-ly,
Who is it you hear speaking…
The wheelchair?
…or me?
Poem submitted by Natalie Parr – whose favourite charity is Headway UK
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Our Fight
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Despite I Fight
Poem submitted by Naomi Broderick – whose favourite charity is Complex PTSD
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A sonnet of positivity
And you took my colors away
You did not paint this!
How can you paint like that with a cheap tempera?
I made this
You are lying!
I am not
This is all that I got
All that I got
All that my family can afford, Professor
My belly become a knot after knot
after knot of mixed feelings like wild horses running inside of me
I turned red and started to sweat
This taste like a trial
My mouth whispered to myself
My feet felt the flames
Glimpses from another life
I gathered all the courage in my body and a clear voice emerged
I can paint the canvas again, so you can see it for yourself
And I painted a new sun,
A new yellow star,
With your eyes on my neck,
Inspecting my steps
My cheap wicked colors
What is your sin?
Can you tell me?
Guess what? I got two suns
The brightest stars that my teenager hands could craft
Later, when my leaves were full of scars, doubts and dreams,
my college teacher told me that tempera was one the most precious paints,
So majestic that the Egyptians used them to paint the sarcophagus, as the paintings help guide
people to the otherside.
And I was there,
Sitting on the old wooden floor,
Listening to these very words,
And all I can think is my cheap yellow star,
My cheap yellow sun
My cheap yellow sun
Guiding you to the afterlife
So as I continue to waddle along I must remember to stretch & bend, it is a effort but it will help in the end.