RP REFLECTIONS: WHAT I’VE LEARNED ABOUT MY VISION IMPAIRMENT IN 2020, SO FAR
Wow, well that was a long blogging break. I think we can all agree that 2020 has been, what shall we say? Strange? Shocking? Devastating? But we’ve also witnessed a great source of strength, courage and community both in terms of the pandemic but also as part of what looks to be one of, if not the biggest, civil rights movements in history.
There has, and continues to be, incredibly important advocacy work stemming from the rise of the #BlackLivesMatter movement, however, I don’t feel educated enough to address the topic here so today’s post sees me dipping back into the reflective waters of talking through aspects of living with sight loss. But I didn’t want to go into this post all blasé and not address it so I just want to note that there are so many articles, books, blogs and resources out there where you can head to find out more about the movement and how you can help.
The only way we can move forward is by educating ourselves, supporting others and join forces to create change. It can happen.
IT CAN BE REFRESHING NOT TO TALK ABOUT IT
I’ve spent the last five years of my life divulging details about my disability online, indulging in curating lengthy blog posts and often referring to the positives I’ve discovered through writing about my experiences on this little corner of the internet.
Untangling strands of my disability and offering those details to others, although incredibly rewarding I’ve realised, it can also be exhausting.
You might remember me introducing RP Reflections to the blog a few months ago now; A series where I hoped to delve a little deeper into aspects of my eye condition that I hadn’t necessarily reviewed or touched on before, not on the internet anyways.
I think 2020 has given many of us the opportunity to reflect inwardly on our lives, what we’ve learned and what we want going forward. We all know that I’m one for a good ol’ reflective session so, I thought I’d bring you the second instalment of RP Reflections and lend a post to a few of the lessons I’ve learned about and from my vision impairment in 2020 up to this point.
Let’s dive straight in, shall we?
Stepping away from my blog and allowing myself the space to lean further into other aspects of my life that I wanted to concentrate on afforded me the opportunity to remind myself that, although I’ve built this platform on the basis of wanting to raise awareness and help others in a similar situation, it’s absolutely ok to take a breath and return when I’m feeling up to speaking out again.
I’ve not completely closed myself off from the topic of my vision impairment, that would be simply impossible since I often need to talk through access needs or something along those lines. But stepping away from my blog, although a little odd to begin with, has given me the opportunity and the space to muddle through life without the question of ‘What VI related topic should I write about next?’ permeating my thoughts.
This has come with repercussions of course; stepping away from this space has meant that I’ve felt myself slip into a state of disconnect, from the community we’ve built on here but the online disability community too.
This left a feeling of loneliness in its wake but as I take slow steps back into this online space, I hope that feeling dissipates.
SCREEN TIME = SENSITIVITY = LOTS OF BREAKS NEEDED
I thought I’d throw this one in here because I often refer to the sensitivity of my eyes without necessarily addressing the baseline and the catalyst of it.
So here’s one.
Technology makes the world accessible to me and so, a lot of my life revolves around staring at a screen.
But it’s a catch 22 situation since it can also be the barer of pain and sensitivity.
I’ve always been conscious of this but if there’s one thing I’ve honed in on this year, it’s that frequently stepping away from the screen, even for a few minutes or so is what I need to do to ease that inevitability.